A Sort of a Prayer

ONE OF MY FAVORITES — IF NOT MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE EPISODE OF BTVS was on Chiller on Sunday evening. It’s “Becoming” (Part 2), in which Buffy is forced to kill Angel in order to save the world — again. It’s also the episode in which Principle Schneider expels her from Sunnydale HS and Joyce (foolishly, as she admits to herself), shouts to the back of a departing Buffy, “If you walk out of this house, don’t even THINK about coming back!”

So the last scene of the episode starts with Buffy, having just thrust a sword through Angel’s heart, sending him into a Hell dimension forever, even though Willow has succeeded in giving him his soul back. And this Sarah McLachlan song starts up … “Full of Grace.”

I can never watch it without mouthing the lyrics, and getting all teary and choked up.

You just like to wallow in the pain.

Hardly. I love the affirmation of all of the strength and all of the courage that comes to lift us all from those places. It’s what I like about YOUR story, Dolly.

Anyway. Here it is. A sort of a prayer.

The winter here’s cold, and bitter
It’s chilled us to the bone
We haven’t seen the sun for weeks
To long too far from home

I feel just like I’m sinking
And I claw for solid ground
I’m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go

If all of the strength and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love

So it’s better this way, I said
Having seen this place before
Where everything we said and did
Hurts us all the more

Its just that we stayed, too long
In the same old sickly skin
I’m pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
Oh darkness I feel like letting go

If all of the strength
And all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
Full of grace
Full of grace
My love

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